i think i might start writing again.

i’ll write about cities i’ve been to, starting tomorrow.

 

i’ve never publicly publish my blog since it contains personal thoughts, but soon i might.

via Daily Prompt: Later

 

Disappeared

The way the sun is swallowed whole by the night

Peaceful yet horrid

The way the stars are consumed by the descending fog

Set me free

be careful who you tell your stories to.

 

sesungguhnya, cerita yang kita bagi ke orang lain itu tidak hanya sebatas untuk melepas penat.

terkadang tanpa disadari, seseorang bercerita hanya karena sebatas merasa butuh untuk bercerita. padahal, cerita tersebut telah di ceritakan ulang demi ulang hingga batas nyatanya menjadi blur.

cerita yang diperdengarkan oleh satu pihak saja, sudah jelas akan bias. apalagi jika ceritanya terus menerus diceritakan, pasti akan semakin memihak. sampai-sampai dalam agama pun apabila ada konflik antara dua pihak, sebaiknya diselesaikan dengan melibatkan pihak ketiga.

ketika bercerita tentang masalah kita ke orang lain, kita tidak hanya berbagi rahasia dan aib kita, tetapi kita juga bercerita tentang rahasia orang yang terlibat dalam cerita kita.

dan.. disini poin pentingnya. orang itu belum tentu ridho apabila cerita itu diketahui oleh orang lain.

jadi, dewasalah dalam bercerita dan berbagi.

not everything that needs to be said, must be heard.

 

It sucks

that you proudly upload her pictures online

It sucks

that you tagged her like you want the whole world to know she’s important

It sucks

that you’re so willingly spend time talking to her and actually listen

It sucks

that you make romantic gestures even though she’s on different island

It sucks

that you surprised her on her birthday

.

.

.

when i never got to be treated that way.

many people think that goals and procrastination doesn’t go together. actually, it does. i have had this vision about what i want to be for quite a while now but i never made a real plan and jot down the steps on how to get there.

currently, i have 3 upcoming deadlines. i actually have nothing urgent to do that i need to postpone activities of doing my projects, yet somehow i’ve been spending my time doing anything but the projects. it’s like i’m stuck in a limbo. no, i’m stuck (more like trapped) in my own emotions that i don’t have any motivations left.

but hey, it actually is up to me whether i want to be happy or just be like this

I know that you still haven’t found you,
And when I wanna stand on my own too
Suddenly you start to show
Signs of what is possible

Then you’re back to your ways
And I let me down
Tell me why I keep tryin’ stay around
When all my family
They always telling me

To be through with you
And I know that deep down I’m callin’ time on you
On you
On you

Every time I’m ready to leave
Always seem to be
Pulling in the wrong direction
Diving in with no protection
Man, you can’t keep steerin’ me wrong

Oh gravity
Pulling me back
Pulling me in
Why you pulling me back
Pulling me in
Just like gravity

I know I betrayed but I’m made to
Ignore the universe when I see you
Cause every night the stars will shine
Verging into U-turns times

Anything that they can just to change my mind
When I pass your road I can’t help rewind
What is wrong with me?
All that I wanna be is

Through with you
And I know that deep down I’m calling time on you
On you
On you

Every time I’m ready to leave
Always seem to be
Pulling in the wrong direction
Diving in with no protection
Man, you can’t keep steering me wrong

Oh gravity
Pulling me back
Pulling me in
Why you pulling me back
Pulling me in
Just like gravity

Be quiet, let me leave, let me go
Don’t say another word
Cause with every sound
You’re pulling me down

Baby,
You got a hold on me
Like gravity

aku rasa salah satu alasan kenapa seseorang bisa kembali ke orang yang sama, setelah tersakiti, adalah karena penasaran yang belum tuntas.

 

aku penasaran, karena aku yakin seharusnya kita bisa bekerja sama dengan baik.

aku penasaran, karena banyak hal yang belum ku sampaikan.

aku penasaran, karena aku rasa kita bisa mencoba lagi,

kali ini

untuk terakhir kali

 

Kuberi nama kau senja,

penghilang penat di tengah kesibukan,

obat resah juga gundah,

pelipur lara di balik hiruk pikuk kemacetan jakarta.

Ku simak senja itu,

lenyap sudah amarah,

pun lelah

tenggelam dalam tatapan senja

kini,

Di remang senja,

rinduku masih belajar mengeja

tentang bahagia jingga,

tentang harap cinta

 

malam ini purnama

dari pelupuk mata tampak sinar bulan

sempurna

andai saja tidak ada hiruk pikuk Sukajadi

andai saja tidak ada keramaian

hanya aku dan kamu

menikmati terpaan angin

meniupkan aroma tubuhmu yang ternyata masih membekas

sempurna

andai saja

katakan bulan,

mengapa?

mengapa begitu mudah untuknya

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